The fallen star ..

Epiphany is hard to come by .
More so when you're desperately in need .
In need of the good things you secretly cherish to come true . Well .. They don't ..
And then there comes a phase when you can sense something else . Something extraordinary . Or to say every menacing thing that is to happen with you . With an added certainty that things will go wrong in every possible way they can . To muse you may say that now you've the pleasure of knowing them beforehand . Your third eye , which was so very lazy to open its lid , all of a sudden starts blazing . All hail the Almighty ! You start seeing things around you that you know you've seen before . Seen them happening . In your head ? Well ! Now you can't tell the difference . You feel like you're walking through the same lanes for years . You are familiar with the smell , the color , the faces behind the mask ( which they so often do wear ) . Even what is awaiting for you on the very moment you turn another corner . You're into this "Surreal but Nice" domain . Only this time it's not so nice . And that my friend is one shade closer to what you call ironic .

The ride before the fall ..

AND I THOUGHT "IT'S OVER" !!!

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Going down down down ..

Yesterday I moved into this place ..
Dust soaking my feet ..
It is but a figment that I chase ..
And a reckoning .. That is to follow ..

~~~~~~~ Soon ~~~~~~~

The thread is running ..

Something is prickling me from the inside .. Something that's not coming out .. Oh! what is IT ? What IS it ? Every time it's getting any near to the exit .. I start feeling like am choking .. And then again I'm losing the thread ..

No! nice try but this time it's not 'her' thoughts .. You see , I no longer live with that ghost of my decadent past .. Gripping , no doubt , but stinking ! And when I say it's past .. I really mean it .. Like the way your girl says , " I miss you !! " .. She really meeeans it .. Sort of beats me every time I get any closer to that ..

"If it wasn't this , it would be something else !" Yes indeed it is .. A shadow in the twilight .. No wait ! It's not twilight .. it's the full moon instead .. And there ain't any shadow either .. 'Ti's just a grace .. A glow rising slowly from the moonlight pouring deep 'n' wild o'er her face .. How's it like .. the glow ? Well .. Radiant ? Nope ! Iridescent ? Not sure .. Lets just say , " Innocence Intensified " .. As you stoop to plant a kiss in her forehead , you find that twinkle , the suppressed glitter in her eyes .. as she is looking into yours .. Her curly locks , rather shy , caressing her cheeks .. gentle like the first kiss you had .. softly brushing your lips against hers .. your love ..

I came from "Paradise Lost" only to get lost in paradise ..

A better world ..

The day has come to an end . Not with the promise of a new beginning though ! Lazy shower on my way back home makes me all the more insipid . Few familiar faces that doesnt lit up with a smile . Eyes that doesnt sparkle . Mirrors betray to reflect what you expect to see . Seems like people around us are living in their shadows . The world , as they so advertise , is getting better each day . The man in the red shirt sitting by the window , who always sits by the window , is a brilliant bridge player . His fellow mates always prefer to have him in their opponent team . Today he surprised all of them rendering a 10 rupee note to a ragged tramp . Perhaps he had surprised himself the most by this noble act ! As he couldn't help asking the tramp for the change . His polite demeanor was rewarded with 9 one rupee coins and a contorted smile . No doubt the world has become a better place to live in !

Woman , I can hardly express ..

Can you ever love someone this much that you would ..

Wait a second ! The moment you read this I may found you promptly nodding your head .. But that's not what am talking about .. I seriously don't ! Even if you can go on uttering every plausible phrases to fill in the blanks, let me tell you .. Unless of course you often take pride in boring your friends to tears as they always render lots of complaints rather than the stupid compliments { that you expect ! } , you would be mistakenly mistaken ..

Can you ever love someone this much that you would hate her the most ?

Yeah ! You hate her just for the very reason that you're Truly Madly Deeply in love with her .. You really do ! But to your utter amusement you don't know why .. Not that it matter's much .. Cause you can always end up giving never-ending-reasons .. All you have to do is just to watch few good movies that always make you feel like how deprived you are ! You may start with watching seasons like One Tree Hill too .. Actually there are lots of 'em you can count on .. be it some trend-setting music or romantic novels ! And for those lucky ones who are yet to come up with a single satisfactory answer but consider themselves luckier enough to be in love , lemme help you out here .. just play the game .. begin with "What is Love ?" Don't expect an answer here , but trust me .. the rest will fall in place ..

Reminiscing "A Beautiful Mind" .. where Nash said , "It's only in the mysterious equations of love that any logical reasons can be found" .. I wonder love is not just a passing fancy or some impulse .. it's a feeling you're living with .. you're living for .. To testify something so pure as love seems to me a bare mechanical perception which I can happily live without ..
~~ " I love you " ~~ It's the only reason I've .. It's all my reasons ..

Okay ! Now you may ask why give a tinker's cuss to this whole being-in-love-not-knowing-why story .. But the thing is .. at the end of the day .. you still love her .. leaving aside all your resentments .. Or perhaps .. that's something that keeps the fire burning .. And so long you BURN .. you sense that you're still ALIVE .. Drawing immense pleasure from this inexplicable sensation as it goes on running through your veins .. paralysing your senses ..

Infancy ..

Here are my first footsteps in this transcendental world .. Creating yet another virtual identity .. Only this time I have some other reason or so .. An endeavor to know me better (?)


With myriads of blurred vision inflicting upon me
I keep staring at the shadows of my impressions
Contemplating gravely the hues , Ah !
There are the tints of crimson . And the Violet !

Au revoir !!